Motherhood in the storm

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A lot has been on my heart and mind as of lately. Too much to go into detail, but there’s a storm brewing in this little heart. A storm that has the capacity to leave me wondering where to take cover. A storm that has rocked my world. A storm that seems indefinite, even though I have hope that it will pass.

You know that quote about learning to dance in the storm? I’m calling it bull. When life gets hard, or messy, or just plain confusing… the last thing I’ve ever wanted to do was dance. Cry, maybe. But dance? Nope.

But here’s the thing: I have a little soul whom relies on me for everything. Unaware of the storm, she looks to me to relay the truths and beauty of the world around her. So for her, I will dance. For her, the storms that may come and go will be filled with lemon drops and gum drops… Oh what a rain that would be.

Even if life right now is more difficult than I want to admit, she will see the good. Even if her mama is crumbling from the weight of the suffering she is witnessing; my baby will not feel too heavy. Regardless of what this world wants to throw at us, I will protect her.

I’m not sure I know of another mama that would do otherwise.

So if there’s a storm brewing in the horizon, I’m right there with you… standing outside with my heart open wide.

And if you happen to find yourself in the middle of a storm, remind yourself of this simple quote that has brought me peace in my suffering:

“Let nothing disturb you,
Let nothing frighten you,
All things are passing away:
God never changes.
Patience obtains all things
Whoever has God lacks nothing;
God alone suffices.”

— St. Teresa of Avila

5 comments

  1. Amanda says:

    Prayers for you, Natalie! It is hard to be going through something meanwhile trying to share God’s love, beauty, goodness, and joy with your littles. It really is tough! I love that quote from St. Teresa of Avila too. And she just had a feast day! St. Teresa of Avila, pray for us!

  2. Kristin says:

    Sending you mommy strength! There are tons of days things are really tough but you are stronger than you think you are. I love the quote at the end by St. Teresa of Avila. Keep those words constant in your mind.

  3. Essie says:

    I will have you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Also, I really needed to hear that quote today, so thank you for sharing it. God is always there, even when he feels so far away.

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